It seems like I lose my fate some time ago , I dreamed a lot in the period , losing in a big dark hole where I count’t open my eyes.

I dreamed of age grow up , and I worried about that !

I never ever thinking about the troublesome before this period !

Last five year, I fight for gain more power from technology , dreaming of arriving to the top, money or any other comes to me.

But, I didn’t had a rest last five year, nothing got but age and bit of knowledge of IT.

It really disappointed !

I made a determination last year , skills which I handled is much enough to made something I ever determined to do.

Last two months, I made out a website “阿黄小说”, reading novel site. Attending to try a test of earning money or even little acknowledge of setting up a big site , but I lost my mind again.

I made a discussion with little shuai, I talked about my confuse of my career. Company didn’t raise salary since I entered last year.

Am I not worth of raising by my work ? I had grow much more I had done . I continue of leaning deeply of my work , or I have a test to make some games ?

I survey the game area no long ago, situation is serious recently , new come will very difficult to make effort .

During discussion , I realized that the company I stay , I always treat myself a passenger . I join the car, car drive me some years distance , I get off when Company contract arrived.

I never become a partner with any organization before . Am I make mistake ?

I realized that I made a wrong plan all life before . Money I lack of it , because I will buy a house the close two year , but after that ? I employed by some one else again ? Not my career grow , but only stare at the salary I should get just now ?

I made a determination of a more energy pay for myself career. Have a try to something different from before .

Another plan is to have a plan of learning deep in my IT field , and if possible to examine some useful certificates !!! It’s never too late to do your decision !

When learning deep arrived some stage , I will have a try to make some games 😁…

Finally , I remember my fate again , I know where to go , and I will not confuse again .

I am always young !!! My heart will goes on !